Grace Is Now: November 2011

11/27/11

Wanting What I Am

This is not dry, barren

or indifferent,

unless it is..

This is also bone-crushing,

tidal waving desire.

Storms of want,

raining in torrents,

mysterious, wonderful, amazing

shocks of feeling,

dragging us, dumbstruck,

into the well.

Walking in the desert for so long,

it is tempting to miss the water,

to forget to drink.

Diving deep,

travelling down,

into the beginning

of nothing,

up is down,

out is in,

body breaking,

tears pouring,

earth splitting,

quaking open,

and nobody cares

what happens

because

there is

only

the

dissolving

into

thisverynow

containing absolutely

everything and anything

we never knew we wanted.

Self,

the origin and

fulfillment of every

imaginable yearning,

the balm for every

hurt, the silent answer

to every question.

A wildly precious

offering,

this is what Love

gives to Itself.

The desert can be beautiful.

So can a hurricane.

11/10/11

Story Time

Tell me the life of your story,

and I'll tell you mine.

Tell me about love, happiness, and heartbreak,

chocolate, science, and rainbows.

Tell me about One, looking like two,

or about One being nothing,

and everything.

Nothing doesn't stop something from appearing.

Does Being prefer a smile to a tear?

I don't think so,

not unless you do..

Whatever you want

is wanting.

Whomever you love,

is already love.

Whenever you hurt, Being is there.

The very fabric of your story, my story,

is the sweet breath of Being, loving to be.

No possibility of wanting something else,

unless you do..

No desire to alter what is,

unless you do..

The "me" and the "you" are the absolute

perfect

expressions of what is, right now.

Oneness loving to be, as you, as me.

Cherished, welcomed, loved and desired.

Not as an object, but as the very essence of

Self-love,

unavoidable, irresistible.

There is no escaping.

However Beingness appears is exactly how it must appear.

Until appearing as something else.

In the swirling kaleidoscope of what seems to be,

nothing is really happening,

what seems to change is changelessness.

Inside of that secret, the life of the story might

churn and burn.

It's really all right.

No one wants to stop it,

because we can only BE it.

No other choice but

absolute freedom.

Quotes

Consciousness and life - both you may call God; but you are beyond both, beyond God, beyond being and not- being. ~Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj

For everything that lives is holy, life delights in life. ~ William Blake

Consciousness knows itself at all times, because knowing is its nature. How could something that is itself knowing, not know itself? Its knowing of itself is not the knowing of something. Its knowing of itself, is itself. Knowing is present in every experience. Consciousness is that Knowingness. ~ Rupert Spira

Wonderful Writing from Sufi Master Ibn 'Arabi

Know that He is never in anything, nor is anything in Him. He
is neither inside nor outside of anything. None can see Him,
whether with the eyes of the head or with the inner eye; nor
can any conceive Him with senses, knowledge, mind,
intelligence or imagination. Only He can see Himself; only He
can conceive Himself. None can know Him; only He can know
Himself. He sees Himself by Himself; He conceives Himself by
Himself; He knows Himself by Himself. None other than He
can see Him. None other than He can know Him. That which
hides Him is His oneness. None but Himself can hide Him. The
veil that hides Him is His own being.

He is not within you; nor are you in Him. He does not exclude
you, nor are you excluded from Him. When you are addressed
as you, do not think that you exist, with an essence and
qualities and attributes; for you never existed, nor do exist, nor
ever will exist. You have not entered into Him, nor He into
you. Without being, your essence is with Him and in Him.
Without having any identity, you are Him and He is you. If you
know yourself as nothing, then you truly know your Lord.
Otherwise, you truly know Him not.

You cannot know your Lord by making yourself nothing.
Many a wise man claims that in order to know one's Lord one
must denude oneself of the signs of one's existence, efface
one's identity, finally rid oneself of one's self. This is a mistake.
How could a thing that does not exist try to get rid of its
existence?

If you think that to know Allah depends on you ridding
yourself of yourself, then you are guilty of attributing partners
to Him, the only unforgivable sin; because you are claiming
that there is another existence besides Him, the all-existent;
that there is a you and a He.

You presume others to be other than Allah. There is nothing
other than He, but you do not know this. While you are
looking at Him you do not recognize Him. When the secret
opens to you, you will know that you are none other than He.
Then you will also know that you are the one whom He
wished, and that you are forever and will not disappear with
time, for there is no passing of time. Your attributes are His.
Without doubt, your appearance is His appearance.

Therefore, do not think anymore that you need to become
nothing, that you need to annihilate yourself in Him. If you
thought so, then you would be His veil, while a veil over Allah
is other than He. How could you be a veil that hides Him?
What hides Him is His being the One Alone.

The condition for self-knowledge is to know that if you had a
being of your own, independent of other being, then you would
neither have need to annihilate yourself in Allah nor to know
yourself. You would have been, as yourself, a God, self-
existent; while it is Allah Most High that is free from the
existence of any other God but Himself.

And when you come to know yourself, you will be sure that
you neither exist nor do not exist, whether now, or before, or
in the future. This is the meaning of _la ilaha illa Llah_, There
is no God but Allah, there is no being but His, nor any other
except Him, and He is the only One.

Know that this existence is neither you nor other than you.
You do not exist; yet you are also not a nonexistence. Your
existence is not someone else; nor does your nonexistence
make you someone else. Without being and without not-being,
your existence and your nonexistence is Allah's being.

The void is a mirror; creation is the image in it. Man is as the
eye of the image reflected in the mirror; the One who is
reflected in the image is hidden in the pupil of that eye. Thus
He sees Himself.

Is one to consider a decaying corpse or excrement as God?
Allah most high is beyond and free from such associations. We
address those who do not see a corpse as a corpse or
excrement as excrement.

Then when you see what is around you as not other-than-you,
and all and everything as the existence of the One; when you
do not see anything else with Him or in Him; but see Him in
everything as yourself and at the same time as the nonexistence
of yourself; then what you see is the Truth.

That is why the utterance became permissible for Mansur Al-
Hallaj when the words, "I am the Truth!" came from his lips;
and for Abu Yazid Al-Bistami when he cried, "Praise be to Me,
the essence, absolved of all defect!" These are not people who
have annihilated themselves in Allah; nor have they come to be
in Allah. They are eternal. They never ceased to be, for they
never were, since there is only Allah's self, Allah's essence.

So if someone says, "I am the Truth!," do not hear it from any
other than from the Truth Himself; for it is not a man who says
it, it is the word of Allah. That man who utters these words is
nothing but an image reflected in an empty mirror, one of the
infinite attributes of Allah. The reflection is the same as that
which is being reflected, and the words of the image are the
reflected words of the Real One.