9/11/10

Layers of Stories


There may seem to be a story about a person appearing.
The story may seem to be arising now, but it's based on
memory thought or projection.

Right here-now, there is no story. There is a memory thought
of "then," happening now, but what the story is referring to
is not here.

You may see smoke, but until a fire is experienced,
you have no way of knowing of its existence...

One layer of the story might be: "I'm a person, living a life..."

Another layer might be: "I live in this city, I have a family, job, etc.."

Another layer might be: " I have x,y,z problems, I have this kind of personality, etc.."

Another layer might be: "I have some errands to run today, then a night out."

Another layer might be: "Something is missing, I'm lacking something."

Then: "I'm looking for enlightenment."

Then: "There's the sensation of a body in a room, typing."

Then: "Breathing is happening."

Then: "There is only THIS."

Then: "I really don't know what THIS is."

The next layer of the story might be: "I don't know anything."

The next layer of the story might be silence.


Notice that here-now, there is no story. We can say, "I feel a lack, a longing.." but those words do not mean that there is a lack or there is a longing. No thought tells the "truth." No thought can accurately describe what we are.

When we see clouds in the sky, we don't think they "say" something about us. Why do we think that thoughts do? I understand that feelings, sensations and thoughts seem to glom together - but that is experienced just like everything else: without any problem. No thought is believed. There may seem to be "belief" happening, but look closely....layer after layer....it always comes back to THIS, here, now. Where is the belief now? Is this really a belief in a separate person here? Or is it just "what is?"

A thought appears "I need this." It is not believed! There is no one to believe it. This is verifiable right now, and only now. Sure, we can say a belief is happening to no one - but what possible power does that have? More than a blade of grass? A computer screen? A table leg? What we call "belief" is no different.

Nothing has the power to separate from, alter or deny WHAT YOU ARE. If it is assumed that belief is happening, that thoughts are saying something about "you", that is okay....there is nothing wrong with any of it. But it's not happening now. And what the thoughts/stories describe is not true. Everything points only back to THIS.

No one is believing anything. That is just a "story" in "time." When I speak of here-now, I'm referring to timeless Being. Time is a concept that timeless Being can appear as. What we label a "story" or "belief" is another way Isness appears, no more important or true than the appearance of a bicycle tire.

This is the freedom of what we are.

My question is: Is there ever really a story or belief running..... right. here. now. ?

If the answer is no..... then, welcome to what a thought said you were always looking for! :-))


9/5/10

Immediate


What is being pointed to here is so immediate, so fresh, so now...

A thought seems to arise, then dissolves.
There is no evidence of that thought right now.
There may arise another "memory" thought that points back
to the "original" one....but the "original" one is nowhere
to be found...

There is only this very thought arising, ever.
No evidence of any others, at another "time."

And this one now.....where is it - - - now?

So, do thoughts actually arise and fall away??

Or is there simply THIS, here, immediate, fresh and aware?

Whatever seems to be happening is *bang* right now,
not the "story of the now" just passing..

What we are is more immediate, fresh and alive than this moment.
It is the now without not-now, the now without "then," the now beyond
any concepts.

There is just THIS -all of it, fully alive in every way.
YOU ARE THAT.