Feelings And Blackberry Bushes

Sometimes someone expresses: "I know all this (Advaita stuff) and it's really, really seen clearly that there is no one, and yet, there is still a feeling of being a separate person."

And the response here is: where's the problem? I see no problem in "feeling like a (separate) person." If "feeling like a person" is arising, so be it. Doesn't mean a thing. Doesn't mean that there IS a separate person. Feelings arise, just like everything else, and have no more "truth" in them than the blackberry bush, for example.

We might say that a blackberry bush is Being "blackberry-bushing" and a person is Being "personing"....it's just the loving-to-be dance of THIS. I really can't speak to the feeling of "blackberry-bushing." And as for the feeling of "personing," well, it seems to be a bunch of sensations, thoughts, ideas, etc....which kind of glom together and seem to whip up more thoughts, which kind of coalesce into a "story".... but no, not really! That's already going too far.

Right here and now, there is no "cohesion" of thought, sensation etc. there is just....This....whatever it is...not separate from what IS. Where is the separate person?

A lot of seeking in the non-duality circles seems to be about stopping suffering, which is very understandable. But here again, suffering is also like the blackberry bush....it appears and disappears. Notice that suffering lives in memory only....or projection. It doesn't exist NOW. We might say that suffering can only exist in thought, whereas pain is a sensation. The two don't necessarily have anything to do with one another. Suffering revolves around the "me" story. We've already seen that that "story" doesn't hold up, NOW....so does suffering exist?

Feelings are also just what arises in THIS. So, "feeling" like a separate person (whatever that really means) is just not a problem. It happens (appears)....until it doesn't! But BEING has never moved, never separated, never been other than This...

Don't be fooled by sensations, feelings, thoughts, etc....there simply is no escape from Being! There is only now, now, now, now. The rest is a wonderful, mysterious, captivating story...made of YOU.


Jason said...

Thank you Mary, this is very clear and extremely beautiful. Your post immediately bought to mind a song by Radiohead called "There, There" which seems to accompany your post exquisitely.

Thank you.

Mary said...

You are more than welcome, thank you for the kind words. I don't know the song, but I'm going to find a sample to listen to. :-))


Julian said...

When you look inside you can find no-one there and no suffering, just a familiar space.Then you realise you are just like the blackberry bush, fresh and new in every moment. What a gift - the gift of blackberry bushes I mean and someone to point them out to you.

No One In Particular said...


Julian said...

Every feeling and response, is equally valid, and after all, our words are just concepts. If we look at the lambs we might say 'what is their meaning?'To be here, to dance and play and give expression to being. So it is with us, our blogs and responses to them. x

Mary said...

Lovely words, Julian, thank you.

@Suzanne: ;-)

All love,

Svante Odmark said...

Beautifully powerful post!

Mary said...

Thank you, Svante!

Julian said...

A nice poem for you that I thought you might appreciate. By Juan Ramon Jiminez who died in 1958:

I am not I.
I am this one
walking beside me whom I do not see,
whom at times I manage to visit,
and whom at other times I forget;
the one who remains silent while I talk,
the one who forgives, sweet, when I hate,
the one who takes a walk when I am indoors,
the one who will remain standing when I die.

Mary said...

PERFECT! Thank you, Julian :-)