4/29/08

My Middle Name Used to be "Why?"

I dreamt the other night that the sky began to break apart into little pieces....small squares began to fall, and as I looked up I saw that behind the little pieces was what appeared to be another sky....bluer and brighter and clearer..

What might the dream represent?  Clarity?  The illusion of appearances?  A message from the unconscious?  

Well, there is no one to want to know.  There is no one to search for meaning.  That dream is as real as the life that "I" am living now.  That dream is as important as the typing on this keyboard right now, which is: no real importance at all - AND - the only thing that is possible in the moment.  

What does it all mean?  I don't care.  And that statement is bursting with a gratitude and love that I cannot describe in words.  God, Oneness, Beingness  doesn't need to know, doesn't need anything, just loves being...every appearance delighted in, for no reason. 

This is freedom.....freedom to be this wondrous nothingness.....whether we call it "aliveness" or "meaningful" or even "blue sky," these are just labels for this indescribable loving-being-experiencing joy which is cart-wheeling in ecstasy as the most ordinary, mind-blowingly simple fact: I AM.  

Who needs a reason for That?


4/26/08

No Doer, Nothing Done

It takes no effort to be what you are.  It is what is, right now, and always.  Being, Oneness, Isness, Awareness - call it what you will.  There is nothing but That, and it's a verb.

The person that you might feel you are is simply a story arising in Beingness.  There is absolutely nothing wrong with the appearance of a "separate person," because in reality there is no such thing, and also because if there seems to be one, then that it is what is arising.  In the next moment of no-time it might be seen that there is no person, and if that is the case, then that is simply what is. And then if a feeling of lack, of separation happens again, then that is Beingness, too.  It's all okay.  It's all One.  None of it changes what you are, for you are the Oneness seemingly being all these "things."

Notice that searching for enlightenment is a story that arises within another story of a separate person.  A feeling of lack arises.....and that is what is, until it's not.  A seeming "enlightened person" gives you some advice, points you to the "truth".....can it be anything other than a story?  If something resonates (as is the case often here), is it not simply the Beingness being/resonating?  Is there a need or desire for freedom in reality?  No.  Enlightenment and liberation are only significant for "someone."  For YOU, it's just what is, what you are.

See that you have no choice, that there is no one to choose liberation or freedom or awakening.  If there is a strong urge for such, it is simply the way this story is playing out.  It can't be any other way.  Nothing can be other than it is, so you can relax and rest in the knowing that This is YOU and the story will run its course and there is nothing that you can (choose to) do about it.  This may sound frightening or hopeless, but how scary is it to see that all is well and there is nowhere where YOU are not? If fear or desperation comes up, welcome that as your own Self, expressing.  No need to label the feelings, no need for a story to explain or understand them.  Greet them as expressions of the One and watch how they come and go in YOU.

All this sharing of non-dual expression and people "getting it" and "not getting it" is a beautiful story in Beingness....as significant as a blade of grass or a bumblebee.  The story of "not getting it" or "this is not it" is another arising in YOU...No meaning whatsoever, because you can't get away from what you are.  You were never separate, you are not separate now and can never be.  And there is no time, except in the story.  

The story of your "life" will take its course.  You have nothing to do with it.  You could say that the character is being lived out, in appearance.  If there is identification with that story line, then that is what is presently happening and it can be no other way.  If, in the story, you are drawn to Advaita and enquiry and you begin to question who you are and suddenly the "person" is seen to be non-existent, then that is what is happening and can be no other way.  

Know that nothing "you" do can touch, add to, or take away from what you are, which doesn't mean that you will sit on the couch the rest of "your story"....unless you do ;-)) which would be nothing other than Being, couching...!

It's all good.  Trust This.  There is no one to trust or not to trust, and yet I say it again: Trust YOU.   Nothing is ever asked of you, except to be, and not even that. Your next breath is even done for you....how could we have ever believed that "we" were running this show??  Doesn't it seem ridiculous now?

How effortless and even delightful it is to simply BE...


4/5/08

Layers

You are Everything 
and you are Nothing

Everything is 
actually Nothing

Look at the world..
Nothing is real,
Everything isn't.

That is to say
that everything you see
is only you:
See-ing 
No-thing (-ing!)