What Is Real?

....I'm still waiting for the answer ;-) 

....what arises in response to this question is a silent buzzing-flow of nothingness...

the word "real" has no meaning here...only "This" is, and no explanation of "This" comes..

melting into This,
as This, not apart nor watching,
being no-thing shines..


Loving I AM

Every question has an answer:


Every problem has a solution:


Every fear, every confusion, every doubt:


The best way to celebrate what is?


I AM is the joy, the delight, the loving-to-be of This.  It springs forth like a heartbeat from Nothingness...like the pulse of Being.  I AM is all that is ever needed or wanted (and not even that).  I AM is more than enough, it is mind-blowing and heart opening bliss, without reason.  The I AM is the spontaneous vibration of aliveness, the birth of consciousness.  Anything added after I AM is like trying to decorate perfection.

Waiting For The Big Change

We are waiting for the big change, the "event," the big bang, the "shift."  This event will finally convince us that enlightenment has happened.  Exciting events may happen!  Are they IT?  

Well, that depends....are they happening NOW?  If so, then yes that's IT!  THIS....right here and now....is IT.  It is always IT!  Enlightenment is now.  Here, and here, and here.

The only thing that says otherwise is a little bitty thought....a few words strung together - so much power given to them!  A thought arises that says, "This is not it, there needs to be a shift, I need to feel differently afterward, the suffering must cease, there will be no more person, ever, I don't think the full liberation has happened....."  and on and on they go...

A little bitty thought is being believed, right now, that you are not the ALL....  That's all that's happening! (and not even that)  This moment, this here here here here is IT.  

What about the feeling of being separate?  What about the identification with the person?  What about this story, that story? What about this feeling, this appearance, that pain, etc.?  ALL THIS.  Made of This.  A kaleidoscope of swirling Isness.  Simple as that!  And remember, identification with a person only happens in time.  It is always a story of a past, a memory or a projection.  Right now, is there a person?  Can anyone say yes without going into a story of what it means to feel separate, have a body, etc.?  Thoughts, labels, all of it.  Now, it cannot be said that there is a person!  A separate person needs time.  Without time, what is left?

What's always holding this story together? What has to be present for anything to seemingly happen?  For anything to appear?  What is present now.....now......now?

That is what you are.  And all of This (imagine a sweeping wave of hand) is also YOU.  In that fact, there is a stopping.  Indestructible presence.

1) Whatever is happening now is IT.
2) Whatever appears to be happening is not what a thought says it is. (It's not a "tree," it's Life/God/YOU being!)
3) Enlightenment is This, now.  It's never going to happen. It has never happened. 
4) YOU are This.

See now that no argument, no story, no thought, no appearance, no denial has the slightest chance against these simple facts.



I AM indestructible peace.
I AM impersonal unconditional love,
I AM complete acceptance
and compassion,
I AM the sunset 
and the sunburn,
I AM what sees fear
and knows none,
I AM rock solid security
and rootless free-fall,
I AM utter simplicity
and unfathomable mystery,
I AM aliveness without purpose,
desire, or meaning,
I AM none of these things
and all of This,
I AM the joy of being,
that I AM.


Sometimes we don't want a beautiful dream to end....some tears might be shed, sadness.  The not wanting the dream to end is also part of the dream..

Maybe there's an unpleasant dream happening....we want it to stop!  And that wanting is again a dream, as well as the person who wants it..

It's all what is happening.  Seen this way, tears can be sweet, resistance can be okay.

There is something that holds all this dreaming, sees it, allows.  This is what we are....untouched by what appears to be, yet fully experiencing..

This is where simply being becomes a miracle, and what appears to happen is seen as just that: a wondrous mirage.

And still the dream continues....without "us"..


Terms of Endearment



All held, embraced, allowed, appreciated....as Self.  

Who knew that impersonal spacious silent freedom could feel so inexplicably tender and intimate?  

Closer than close is really infinite empty spaciousness - this paradox alone is enough to gently explode everything previously believed...


Impossible To Not Be This

It is often talked about that sometimes there seems to be an "in and out" quality to this "awakening," where there is clarity, awareness and "no one" followed by a sort of relapse into the separate person, with its tell-tale "unconsciousness" and identification.  Some call it "me-ing" and "be-ing."  In the story it seems that for a short or long while it can happen like that...
Well, we know that that story is just a string of thoughts, with no independent reality...but if it seems to be happening now, those words will not mean much.

The thing is, even if there appears to be complete identification as a separate person here and now, what has to be present for that?  I mean, even a screaming banshee can only scream because of Being.  Can anything be alive or exist (even in imagination!) without the ground of Being? Can the "you" do anything, say anything or even continue breathing without this Presence? There is this one thing (and it's not a thing) that MUST be present in order for anything to seemingly happen, even a dream, even a thought, a feeling or a color. Nothing is, without the Isness, first.  No appearance can appear without Being, because it IS Being...

That feeling of presence, of simply existing, even while "you" are completely confused, angry, aging, ill, or just bored....that is always there.  And that is what is pointed to.  That is what you are.  There is no way to get to it or leave it.  Just This, right now, that's IT!  Every second of every now-moment IT is here....and
the seconds only appear because of IT.  Even the now only exists because of YOU.

It's impossible to not be what you are, so anytime "you" think you are "me-ing," see that "me-ing" simply cannot happen without This, which is what you are, always and in all ways.... even if you feel like a screaming banshee sometimes! :-))