July 16, 2006
A deep joy is present when there is no story of “me.” As I wake up from a night of dreaming, before the story starts, the “I,” there is a peace and innocent, wondrous joy present…a leap into the moment, into a new day! As soon as the identity of a person comes to the forefront, the joy seems to recede, in favor of thoughts, patterns, feelings that float in (notably a feeling of separation)….I’ve noticed that even if the “story” is completely normal and not at all “negative,” there is still a kind of heaviness, very subtle, but there nonetheless, that seems to appear, like putting on a coat that doesn’t quite fit. Uncomfortable. Then, in an instant, all is light and peace again. It is seen that “I” do not exist - what joy and comfort that brings!!!
Posted by Mary